A Dogs Last Will & Testament

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update: whats been offered… or has it?

offering to take me in is kind BUT loosing all my treasures and stuff n home will kill me also, i just wanna be alone in peace now for me final days.

always told you you were covered and would get house… BUT u didn't offer to pay taxes you just stated they need to be paid now, right after i was starting to pay you.

as for space n visits, (name) there is no place to play, no place to be confortable, i dont have ppls in past yrs and bed most of time.

depression dont help.

i just know when ecomoney bounces back you can make out damn well, not even fixing it up just turning it over BUT i want stuff to go to certain people and i'm trying to set it up and all crumbles… nobody can stand my piss n moaning nowdays so i drive em all off.. then had ones who stole from me didn't help…

then go thru more crap with the family across the street was another reason i'm done.

given up almost (name).

as i said the FACTS are it wont be long as bodys getting way to thin to live off of and the will to die dont help once i've given up.

i dont get out past 3 yrs except to buy food or mail pkgs mostly, yes cpl yard sales with helper a few times to get out in fresh air and walk some.

i do still try to garden but hard.

as i said (name) been here 29 yrs and you know all thee struggles, nobody should have to go thru this… nobody not even a dog! they have more rights than i do seems.

now as for friends yrs back you decided you didn't want my emails cause i dont spell n write jibbrish… well least we had more contact… and thru past yrs how many times did you say you was gonna visit n never did.. then to outta the blue ream me out like you did threw me into a tizzy! Blood pressure was sky high when i went to drs, and hep levels off the chart.. again he tells me he could give me a few more years IF i'd start treatment.. NO i said I want outta here asap.

then searching end of life found Calif allows the Right to Die w/dignity that i can choose when time come IF i'm gonna be homeless or loose everything.

right now i dont have a clue as to whats next, all i know im searching my last days options, as there is no one who helps or cares so i do what any desporate person will do to merely survive what little time i do have left naturally or what i can do to get outta this stress n misery. 

right now all i see is being forclosed on or sue'd and thats the end for me cause my time here will be over n done with. still being here and trying to sell some treasures and garden while i can is all i have left. now if you wanna call that life.. so be it.

not like any good times have happened in yrs.

no of you even know what it is to be without family or anyone who can care or support.. so there no support system to even care to go onto.

can't you guys all understand that? my gosh…..

ok i need to take a pain pill n go back to bed, my helpers has dental n wont be here till afternoon later..

sucks having to rely on a stranger of sorts… days i could still drive but 4 yrs now no vehicle so thats out.

oh well give me some feedback but do NOT start to put me down and tell me how i always make such stupid decesions and crap… survival means doin what i see fit to help the cause, none has worked out to long, but perhaps served its purpose at the time.

ive come to the conclusion i was born to be alone n die alone, Lord must have something mighty speacial for me to have such life long battles, never have i come accross anyone who this went on ALL thru life, and i'm cariing, compasionate person and have always treated all around better than good.. and none ever stay long, too many problem and my mouth… so thats way i'm goin out..

no answers yet…give me imput, but now i dont even trust you after the panic call. sorry. you have no clue what that did to me (name).

and now how i'm suffering.

weigh'd this am 80#s and i dont care to even eat thinking it will hury it all up.

never meant for any to happen but was all outta my control.

as i said i can pay a cpl hundred but not taxes also.. 

crying now and i need to lay back down.

hope it all passes soon

Facts….

Fact is i started paying upon her request..

then she started on bout taxes having to be paid..

Fact is I can't pay both.

Fact, she can foreclose or force sale, n wont get near the money she can if she'd just let me pay out what short time i have left… but 2 yrs state will take for taxes. FACT

Fact at 83#s n no will now to even continue to struggle or live, my body wont substain me much longer, i'm at kids weight. This is NOT life of any sorts

Fact to have to lay in bed days upon end n to have this on my mind 24/7 is stressed me to max, can't deal with it.

shouldn't have to is more like it. should be allowed my last days/yrs in peace.

Fact is "I give up".. chips will fall where they will, can't afford 300 hr for an atty. so thats it.

FACT The end is so near, hopefully i will find PEACE then!
and …

FACT: Business is Business, life is life, i've been proven that BUSINESS is far more important than LIFE!

Thnx to ALL….

Thnx to ALL…

well to wake up after such battle and be given no choices, well what is left? been here 29 yrs, and now to the point i spend lots days in bed., heps bout to take tole, 3 yrs over estimated time of liver shut down, can smell it, n no body fat to live on so MUST face facts? ….
can't pay taxes and payments she demands. no future to even look forward to, and i sure don't wanna be in a "home"… i so choose to go before that even happens.

my sprit to fight is so crushed and the stress alone will do me in prob.
sad, home can't even be sold due to back taxes has to be paid. if was then i could do the life estate till i pass could live in home.

don't even have a clue now so i just give up, waiting to see atty and tell me how long this will all take.
best i can do in such small isolated desert community with such few resources and no transportation. Please understand

its all up the the Man UPSTAIRS now, i give up

RIGHT TO DIE --MORAL AND ETHICAL ASPECTS--

  Because VDD is a legal and honorable end-of-life option,
we do not need to keep secret our chosen pathway towards death. 
We should tell everyone who cares about us
that we are now proceeding with our plans for death by dehydration. 
There will be a variety of responses from the people who know us.
And we will consider reasonable requests to postpone our deaths.
But if we are making wise end-of-life plans,
most reasonable people will be supportive. 

http://www.tc.umn.edu/~parkx032/CY-VDD-SG.html

Right to die with dignity act

searching Calif laws on this… maybe just whats needed

Voluntary death by dehydration is an option that can be used by anyone, anywhere.
Because it will take a week or ten days to die,
this method of choosing death is not likely to be used to commit irrational suicide.
But in those cases where there might be some question
about the wisdom of dying now rather than waiting for death at some later time,
some simple safeguards can help everyone to know
that this was a truly voluntary death and not an irrational suicide.
Another way to make this point:
Wise safeguards will prevent premature death.

end of Life, DOOMED

well figured  since i'm 3 yrs into "borrowed time" already (from liver shitting down from the hep c 32-35 yrs from contact to failure..i'm 38 n yes very ill at times)

that i was now able to start paying for home again and could finally rest in peace i feel i so deserve.

not gonna happen!

Can't pay taxes and the home so either way i'm DOOMED! the stress alone will prob do me in. after 29 yrs of battles and loosing it thru no fault of mine, 3 times and fighting with my all to stay.. and now to have the rug pulled out from under me once again and this time dont have any clue as to what to do. 

state wants taxes, lender wants out… i have NO protection, and alone and i'll don't help.

knew i was worse when state increased my help hrs from 20 to 44! and i've sign up with hospice when ihss can't care.. so all i know to do i've done.

now have to take the tax money being saved to pay an atty for advice. have to see if i can pospone being put out, hoping the stress or Hep will take me first? or ??? shakin head.

can't handle any more. has to be the end..

just wanted to pass in peace what short time i have left, didn't feel that was too much to ask… but guess found out it is.

i'm devistated once again, how much more i ask?

PLEASE FATHER, take me HOME.
YOU always made a WAY where there was NONE in the past, again? or HOME?

Hard time sleeping...

got up to take pills n bk to bed..
BUT it will take 2 yrs for them to take house for taxes so i might as well pay dar the 200 a month so she will let me rest in peace?.. but didn't like the way she came down on me and that scares me that she will put me in street… so thats whay what money i just saved for taxes or her has to go to an atty now to see whats best for me.
its survival time…

i'm bout to give up, wasn't spose to be this way…
and no support system to even discuss stuff so whats left, nothing as i see it, no car to get to legal services none up here..
too many problems along with personal aches n pains n depression n trying to sell what ever i can to make everyone happy! shakin head.

the stress is taking it's tole...

went to drs today and very high blood pressure.. told him im having some problems… dont need this esp now as running outta body mass to live on seems…

now i always tried to make sure she was covered, i paid over 30k+ interest with no problem and NEVER one day late… then all the cuts and losses i had no way as my disability wasn't enough, so i gave her the IOU and said file papers i'd sign… never happened… ask for time to regroup.

she left me alone few yrs as agreed, but refused to have email contact since i dont spell, so we lost touch in many ways..

then she ask me to start paying 200 a month.. well i had to buy firewood still, then pay to have to roof patched and told her this… ok then i do pay in march and she starts about taxes behind… well thought she might of paid to protect her.. and i said i can't pay her n taxes, i talked to them but have to pay 6 months + the penalities first then again n so forth so didn't know what to do.. go see gal at social services for advice…

and was told i need an atty for one… well shocked over the news and the taxes, this stress has had me down more than i care to be esp when i'm trying to liquidate all i can to catch everyone up, but not all has to blow up when she calls demanding and way she spoke to me was degrading.. she has always put me down but this time crossed the line when im doin best i can to even survive and knowing she will always get her money, but seems now is the time, when so stupid markets lowest ever been and it wont bring much.. and neds major work also..

so fig house wasnt important just her final money, reason id will'd to G that time, now thats over and i have to take the tax money i'm saving and pay for an attorney and how to set it up so im covered and she gets her money or whatever.. but sounds like she wants out now so i have to see what i can do.

all i know. been her 29 years, never thought it would end this way, she no better now than tahtcher she saved me from way i see it. i thought she was a friend, but not even caring its my last yrs seems, just bout the money… 

oh well way of the world.

well will find out hopefully next week.

shakin head.