end of Life, DOOMED

well figured  since i'm 3 yrs into "borrowed time" already (from liver shitting down from the hep c 32-35 yrs from contact to failure..i'm 38 n yes very ill at times)

that i was now able to start paying for home again and could finally rest in peace i feel i so deserve.

not gonna happen!

Can't pay taxes and the home so either way i'm DOOMED! the stress alone will prob do me in. after 29 yrs of battles and loosing it thru no fault of mine, 3 times and fighting with my all to stay.. and now to have the rug pulled out from under me once again and this time dont have any clue as to what to do. 

state wants taxes, lender wants out… i have NO protection, and alone and i'll don't help.

knew i was worse when state increased my help hrs from 20 to 44! and i've sign up with hospice when ihss can't care.. so all i know to do i've done.

now have to take the tax money being saved to pay an atty for advice. have to see if i can pospone being put out, hoping the stress or Hep will take me first? or ??? shakin head.

can't handle any more. has to be the end..

just wanted to pass in peace what short time i have left, didn't feel that was too much to ask… but guess found out it is.

i'm devistated once again, how much more i ask?

PLEASE FATHER, take me HOME.
YOU always made a WAY where there was NONE in the past, again? or HOME?