too broken inside to ever heal....
how many do you know that:
*grew up w/no family lovin them...
*ran away at 14 w/o goin to jail, gettin pregant, or drugged out...
*met a guy one night n married him the next... lookin for love
*could'nt ever have children due to physical abuse
*goes to dads funeral only to be told not allowed in
*searched for family only to find alls gone*bounced back not one, not 2 but 3 times after divorce, loosin all each time, to only have the system dig the final grave
*lost house not once , not twice, but 3 times! and fought till became owner again n again n again ...
*has been stalked not once but twice and became victim of a violent crime, loosin 6 mo life +
*was given the death sentence, waiting to die and got pissed, weaned off all meds n worked the next yr in construction...*has so much talant n creativity and starvin...
*has had a death, a divorce and a major quake all 1 yr apart
*tells it flat out and nobody can handle or deal w/truths
*have achieved great things to be in such a rut now
*the brain dont stop and drives all crazy
*lives as tho they are dying, n nobody understands why they aren't function'n as normal..
loss after loss, takes a toll on one's soul
I did NOT choose this...
I believe in God yes, I believe in RAPTURE yes! why? cause whether real or not after this life i dont ever wanna miss out on peace n happiness, this has been my hell down here most all my life...yes I've done n had n achieved great things but i'm broken into peaces and really I just wanna go HOME and have peace.. that is my ONLY escape my idea of friends n family is a lot dif from what most feel or think should be so will knever know that feeling of protection or someone always being there for me ...
I've have very little support along the path that got me here
this will continue.....
rained so bad water runnin down walls n ceiling, inside now n both bathrooms...
